It was raining when I closed
that door behind me
Mother Nature supplying me with the
tears
I could not shed
Every time before when I had left
Tears streamed down my face
Pain has hardened my heart
Today, there were no
Tears.
This one was published recently in an anthology from Poetry.Com. It is the second poem I've had published *S*. I hope to have more, maybe an anthology of my own one day.
Waiting
Looking out across the blackened
field
She sees death everywhere
They fell without so much as a whimper
So struck by love were they
She wander the field looking toward the
sky
No bolts of lightening there
She wonders if it will ever come
That bolt to strike her down
She longs to be wasted on this
battlefield
To fall quietly into the darkness
Like those she walks among
She wonders when it will come
Then in the distance a figure
Another lost soul wondering
There’s a bolt moving their way
The sky is electrified as they move
closer to one another
With a touch of their hands
A clap of thunder is heard
And they fall together on the
battlefield
Killed to be born again in Love
Falling In Love
When two people meet Admiration keeps them together They stay together As a friendship grows A closeness develops as His dreams and Her dreams Become Their dreams And they begin to think Not of Me or I But of Us Before They know it Love has taken root And the other person is A part of Them Being apart is torture And eventually His stuff and Her stuff Becomes Their stuff And a life is begun Love, the thing dreams are made of |
Time To Love Again
There will be a time When letting go doesn't hurt Nearly as badly as staying When you feel like You've been hurt enough The mornings are still grey But the days are bright And although alone The nights are bearable again There will be a time When loves fades And hope steps in There will be a time To love again
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Angry words
A look
I do not want to care
Loss of faith
A word
I do not want to love
Two hearts collide
Two hands touch
I do not want
In anger's embrace
A spark ignites
To grow old alone
No one can predict
Trusting hurts SO much
Love begins
Being alone is misery
I've
been lied to
You will never be
I've
been cheated on
What I need
I've
been used
You will never love me
And
now I don't know
The way I should be
If I
can trust again
You will never miss me
The
thought frightens me
When I'm gone
Causes my heart to beat harder
I will always love you
But
the idea of being
More than I should
Always alone scares me more
When I'm gone
I do
not want
I will always wish
To be
alone
For just one more day
So
where do I find
I will always wish
The
strength and faith
For you to love me
To trust
another
I'm jaded
And so
terribly frightened
I wish all
time could
Stop
The following poems were entered in and published on the www.poetry.com site. "I Know" is currently a semi - finalist in their poetry contest. "Falling" did not make the semifinals but was published summer '98. This brings my current publication count to Five. One step at a time.....one poem at a time.....one day, a book!
I Know
Every once in a while
While lying there in his arms,
I see a glimpse of us and I have to
smile
Because I see you in her arms,
Reaching across her for that
lighter
Or lost cigarette
And I feel your heart ache just a
moment
For my familiar touch
As I in that moment I ache for
yours
I wonder if you hear my laughter
through the trees
Or catch a glimpse of me in someone
else,
I often do you
It's not that my heart still loves
you
So much as it is
My heart misses what I thought we
were
Yeah, I do think of you as I lie in
his arms,
I know you think of me.
The sand in the hour
glass
Falls quickly
Sliding, slipping
The grains squeeze through
to fall
Headlong into a pile
One filing on top of
another
I feel like one of those
Pieces of sand
Slipping, sliding
Knowing I'm going to fall
The falling and getting
Squished by the pieces
Falling down around me
No control do I have
On these feelings
No ideas of how
To stop falling
I'm alone in an hourglass
Falling with the sands
Once in a while someone
comes along
Who can complete your
thoughts and
Feel your feelings, one who
knows you
But can still learn about
you
Some call you their
soulmate, others destiny
To me you are all that and
more, you are
My Friend
Sometimes we are lucky
enough to have you stay
More often the fear of
one's own self doubts
Pull you apart
And you are left wondering
if it was real
My friend, my destiny, my
soulmate, it was
But time will pass to make
it impossible to go back
So the next time you meet
them
Hold on don't step back,
don't doubt
Just love with a true heart
and it will work out
He says good-bye and
I take a deep breath
I tell myself I won't
cry, I won't be upset
The wave of emotion
floods my senses
The only sound is that
of my breaking heart
Panic wells up inside
me as he turns to go
I want to scream and
yell and beg him to stay
He says, "It's for
the best you know"
And although I do not
agree I quietly nod my head yes
Just to spare him more
pain
I want to yell, to beg
him to stay
But pride keeps me from
following him
I shall stay in this
place alone
With tears rolling down
my face
He reaches out and
brushes away the tears
And hope springs to
life in my damaged heart
But looking into his
eyes I know
He's not changed his
mind
There is a sadness in
his voice
As he says, "I
love you."
And turns and walks
away
I cry tears 'til no
more will come
He was the world to me
Now I must go on
I will find a way to
live without him
I will go on
I will love again
Because of him
Yesterday is Gone
I Fear
Yesterday is gone
I fear that when the day comes
Just like a dream
When you are finally ready
It slipped by while I had my eyes closed
To trust me
And it stole you away
I will be too afraid
Taking you into the past
Too used to living in the dark
You are out of my reach
To come into the light with you
Gone from my life
I am not a gutless person
Leaving me with bittersweet memories
But I've had so much pain
My life continues
Dealt to my heart
As tomorrows become todays and then...
That another blow might
Yesterdays
Just break it into unmendable pieces
Half complete half incomplete
I talk good theory
I turn to a new person
And have headstrong ideas
And find myself wondering
But deep inside I'm still terribly afraid
If he will slip away too
Afraid that when you are finally ready
While I'm not paying attention
I won't be
Fall into the past as I sleep
Will the mistakes of the past
Hinder my future
So many questions distracting me
So many fears holding me back
Must remember
Yesterday is Gone.
The Widow
She wakes to face the
day
She glances at his picture
And a prayer drifts
through her mind
"Lord today please
send him to me
Since you took my love, I
need help with my heavy load
I've loved and lost and
stayed true to hope
Lord today please, send me
someone to love."
And she starts a new day.
Each night she stops
just before bed
And with a glance at her
wedding ring
She bows her head in
prayer
"Lord, you took my
love away too early in his life
but I have held the faith.
I ask each day for a new
love and each night I go to bed alone.
Dear Lord, make me strong,
my load is heavy and I am so alone.
Lord, please, send me
someone to love."
And each night she dreams
she is not alone
You Hold The Key
I once thought I could
comfort you
Do not dwell in the past
If I were strong enough,
good enough
Mistakes made can not be fixed
Then I could fix it all
Do not dwell in the future
I know now that I can
not
Tomorrow may never come
And you must have the
strength
Plan your dream and set your
course
To find help for
yourself
But dwell in today
I can give you courage
and
For one's power lies here
Stand beside you
To use what we've learned
I can love you but I
can't fix it
And do not spend it alone
And without your
trusting yourself,
A solitary life is no life
at all
There is no we
Share it and make the future bright
And I am alone
And the mistakes from the
past worthwhile.
In frustration and pain
I can't fix it
You hold the key
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