What Do You Do
What do you do
When all he speaks
Are lies
That tear at your heart
And break down your pride
What do you do
When he searches still
For one who he can love
When you will not do
And your heart bleeds
What do you do
When you love him
SOOO much
The thought of it
Catches in your throat
What do you do
When
He doesn't love
You
How could this not be love? No one I've ever met Makes me this angry Or makes me laugh so fully No one has ever caused So much joy or pain All with the same event It must be love Why else would my heart break? At the sound of your voice At the look on your face At a deed done Why else would I want to be With you? Why else would I have stayed Through all our trials How could this not be love? When we can't stay apart How could this not? |
With someone who cares for me I want to wake each day With his arms holding me tight Knowing that I mean something to him Would be a dream come true I want my boys to See me happy and the way a family Should be I want forever in a promise That is kept I want to love someone Wholeheartedly, without reservation or fear I want the dream We all had as kids I want to be loved |
When we started,
I can hardly describe
How you changed my
life
How you gave me hope
and focus
How wonderful it was
to have you near me
There was no past to
overcome, just a feeling
That was so strong
And I fell head over
heels
I honestly believed
You longed for the
same
I truly thought we
worked toward
The same things
and then slowly, one
lie at a time
The truth came to
light
I didn't know you at
all
And even though my
mind knows the truth
You do not love me
My heart can't accept
it
And I spend my time
In turmoil
fighting myself and
trying
To hold on when I
should
Accept you never did
And move on.
To my grandmother whom I miss very, very much. She always knew how to show me the way, even when I was blind to it.
How do you let go
Once death has claimed
It's own
When you long for a hug
Or advice of wisdom
What do you do
When you wake at night
And realize the dream
Was only a dream
I long for just one more conversation
More advice I need
I want one more chance to
Hug you close
What do you do
When death
Has claimed it's own?
When you play the games
You love to play
Do you ever stop to think
Who really gets hurt
That the person you tell
The lies and 1/2 truths
Might really believe you
And trust themselves to love you
Do you ever think for some
It's real?
That they really are investing REAL
emotion in you
What do you get from games played
Certainly you must feel worse
When truth comes to light
When dreams shatter and tears fall
And someone's heart breaks
What do you get from hurting a
heart
Who only wanted to love you?
Angry words, a fight
most foul |
Words spoken |
It takes only a moment To send a card A moment more To compose an email Yet my inbox is empty Messages not sent are messages Not received And the small things That would make a difference A message on voice mail A flower just because That lets me know I'm thought of And cared for Remain undone The small things I once did No longer done Letters left unopened Cards left unread Feelings left unexpressed Slowly die Small things that show respect Show feelings Left undone |
Words written Feelings expressed Carefully folded For lover's eyes Left unsent. Ears stopped listening Hearts stopped reaching Mind operates under false beliefs Two hearts once as one Become two And drift away On words left unspoken Lives made with other's dreams Letters left unsent Feelings left unsaid Love left alone to die |
Once I could tell you
anything
Talk things out with you
And trust
That my feelings were
Respected
With each passing day
Each one sided
conversation
I find that
Your respect for me has
faded
And I keep more and more
inside
To where
You wouldn't recognize
me
I am not one to be cagey
and closed
To cut off what I feel
But you will not talk to
me
And I can not share
When there is no trust
You use it against me
When it suits you
And keep yourself
Closed and alone
With each passing day
Each unanswered question
I move a bit more away
Looking for
someone
Who will communicate
with me
Who loves me
Who will
love me
I keep thinking
That if I say it long enough
Or loud enough
Or enough times
Then when you don't follow through
Or fail to say
What I need to hear
Then I won't be surprised
And I won't be hurt
I don't know why
I continue to try
Because I already know
That you really don't love me
No matter how many times
I tell myself
Or how many times I hear it
I still get crushed
And you still hurt me
And my tears still fall
And you do not care
I trusted you with
my shattered heart
With the secret hurts
that keep me awake
I opened my life, my
world to you
Because I was
determined not to make
The mistakes from the
past
I wanted this to be
different from before
Not frightened of you,
only of staying because
I was afraid of being
alone
But different
Not here because I had
to be
Not holding myself back
so that
I could walk away when
I wanted
I gave myself to you
and you in turn
Used me
You took my gifts and
you thought they were
What they were not
You made them something
I never meant them to be
In your heart, you know
there is no doubt
About my love for you I
held
You only needed an
excuse
To justify the things
you do
You used me when I gave
Myself to you.