Why Can't I See?

Dear Lord, why is life so tough?
I just can't see why,
Everything is just so rough,
It makes me want to cry.
 
I don't understand the way I feel,
It's so alien to me,
Sometimes I want to believe it isn't real,
But then how on earth can that be?
 
I feel as though I'm lost,
And no one can find me,
Why can't I understand the cost,
You paid when you died for me?
 
I have all the evidence to see,
How much you really care,
But it's hard for me to believe,
That no matter what you'll always be there.
 
Lord, you are the best thing in my life,
And yet I choose not to see it,
I guess that's why I have so much strife,
It's like my life is a bottomless pit.
 
It amazes me why you still are here,
When I choose not to see your love,
It's like I choose to think you're not near,
When really you're watching me from above.
 
Lord you've never left me alone for a day,
You've been there to see me through,
With you there is always a way,
There's no wrong way with you.
 
Lord I love you with all my heart,
But sometimes I just can't see,
Why my life feels it's falling apart,
Sometimes it stinks to be me.
 
I know everyone has situations,
And yet I feel it's just me,
I think it's because I don't see your admiration,
I choose to not see.
 
Thank you Lord for not leaving me,
When I complain and gripe,
I wish I would just see,
That it was you that took the stripes.
 
You went through so much pain,
And suffered so much agony,
You did it so I could gain,
I realize you died for me.
 
Thank you Lord for your sacrifice,
It's the best gift I could receive,
Because of you I can have everlasting life,
And it's all because you cared for me.

 
By Lindsey Bates © 1-17-01