SINÉAD
O’CONNOR:
“I
would kill myself if I was an ordinary person!”
What
do you think about the people who describe you as a headache?
I’m not angry with
them; besides, I respect them. Because, at least, they’re using thier right
to protest; they’re showing the courage to oppose something. The people
who think that I’m a troubled person, in fact are not those who I see as
a problem and against whom I’m fighting. It’s strange, those who I want
to crucify have prefered to keep silent or stay away from me so far.
Who do you mean?
The Pope?
Who I mean are the
liars, those who kill the freedom of speech, those who try to control our
lives; but most of all those who abuse children and those who shut their
eyes to this. I’m not against The Pope. He’s only a symbol. I’m against
the institution which he represents. The source of all evil; in other words
the Catholic Church.
Had you planned beforehand
what you did in the TV show Saturday Night Live?
While I was sitting
in the backstage before the show, I was listening to Bob Marley in my walkman
and thinking that how absurd my planned role was. Then all of a sudden
I changed my mind, it wouldn’t have gained anyone anything if I had done
what I was asked for during the rehearsals. I was supposed to sing Scarlet
Ribbons from my new album and meanwhile hold a picture of starving African
children towards the camera. Everyone already knew these facts. I wanted
to draw people’s attention to the reason, not to the results. So I sang
Bob Marley and ripped the picture of The Pope.
What about what
you did during the Bob Dylan tribute concert in New York Medison Square
Garden?
According to the schedule,
I was going to sing Dylan’s I Believe In You. If I had told that I wanted
to sing Marley’s War again, I would have been most certainly rejected.
I did what I felt like doing and I did what I thought was right.
But you got booed...
There were twenty thousand
people in the hall and more than half was enjoying themselves. I amazed
them, and they booed me. It’s nothing to spend a lot of time thinking about
because the American are touchy more than necessary.
What was Bob Dylan’s
response to what you did?
We never talked about
it. He musn’t have been pleased with it, of course. If I had done what
I was told, now I would regret it. I don’t care about what Dylan thinks.
Dylan has done nothing so far but to deceive people who believe in him.
If you think that
way, then why did you take place in that concert?
I had to take advantage
of every opportunity to have my voice heard. Don’t you think it’s enough
reason?
Have you ever wanted
to live like an ordinary person?
Ordinary people live
with fake truths. I could never bear this and I would kill myself if I
had to. In their little lives customized truths are dominant. If I had
to spend my all day opposite the television watching to MTV or if I had
to have sex with my husband whenever he wanted to, the last thing I would
like to do would certainly be living.
Why are you against
MTV this much?
I will not give up
repeating until it comes true: MTV must be closed down! Becaus MTV is blinding
our eyes, it is taking us away from the things we have to see. MTV itself
is solely responsible for why we have become a stranger to art, poetry,
theatre and all other beautiful things. The images change so quickly that
you even don’t have the time to stop and think. This nonsense which has
no use but to break off the tie between our brains and hearts must end
at once!
Nothing Compares
2 U is still one of MTV’s most aired videos...
Damn it! I don’t want
to talk about this subject anymore.
Do you think today’s
Sinéad has to do with what she went through as a child?
Probably. But it’s
my mother to hold responsible for everything. She was an unhappy and menatlly
ill person. She was very cruel; but the worst of all was there was no one
to help her. She always told me that sex was a disgusting thing and that
I should never do it. Even my breating was enough reason fo her to beat
me up. Sometimes she used to chain me up and send to the garden, and I
would spend the night outside. She died in a car crash in 1985. I had seen
the night before that my mother would die.
How’s your own relation
with your son?
Full of love. My biggest
fear is to hurt Jake. And my biggest responsibility is to raise him as
a conscious person with self respect.
What could be your
expectations from music from now on?
Nothing. The boss of
my record company still thinks that return to the industry. Excluding very
special occassions and very special purposes, I will never enter to the
studio nor give concerts again. I don’t even want to touch a single penny
to come from the companies’ safes. Music was a good means to have my voice
heard. I could only carry out the mission which God has given me through
music. It’s not of much importance whether people listen to me or whether
they care about what I say. What’s important is that I have kept my promise
to God.
Why do you think
you have disappointed people?
In the first place,
because I am a woman. If I was a man and if I had done the same things,
again I wouldn’t have been taken seriously but I wouldn’t have met such
reaction, neither. The second reason is my appearance. I don’t have vision
of a reliable woman. A shaved head, careless clothes and such... They can’t
put me into a category and this is driving them crazy. People are
afraid to listen to me because I’m telling things they don’t want to hear.
Now I only want everyone to know that as a person full of love, not hatred,
I only belive in God and in rightness of what I’m trying to do.
Taken
from an issue of the Turkish music mag, Blue Jean circa 1992.
Translated
from Turkish by Deniz Cebe.